siwen: Beginning

My first week at SAP

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 09:21:17 GMT

It's been a long week.

There are 25 of us new comers. We are now set in one training class. Almost half of the class came from SJTU, and a quarter from FDU...On the first day, I did not feel very good about my future job. I was kind of in panic and began thinking of finding another job. I know it sounded ridiculous, but that was my true feeling. It lasted for a while. Luckily things were getting better from Tuesday. I realized that I should make my mind to settle here or leave, since it is my first job and I am already 24 years old. Finally I choose the former. I wanna be a person who love my job and enjoy my life.

People here are really nice. And also, it seems that all the senior colleagues have worked a long time here, usually more than 10 years. This brings me another shock. Maybe it is a German style- people stay in someplace very long and finally become very professional or high level. They do not leave, do not wander. They just stick to what they are doing.

Besides, almost everyone here can speak fluent English, and if their English is not quite good, maybe they can speak a third language like Japanese or German.

In the end, I wanna show up a little: I have a brand new laptop-THINKPAD T61. Now I have a HP and a former IBM~hoho

To do list 1

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 02:58:54 GMT

今天重新写Self Introduction。

另外，死磕也要弄一个Career Plan出来——

虽然我一直觉得动辄五年的Career Plan即使写出来也不是我真实的想法。

PS: 昨天帮实验室的两个师兄还有惜惜投简历，又跑到复旦去参加Marvell的宣讲会。

很typical的IT公司啊，来的人都穿的很casual，讲话也很务实。

不过他们也太低调了，安排了一个很小的教室，我都没地方可以坐。

这家公司的美国老大据说很看重GPA，然后对学校也很看重。

再有就是和其他所有外企一样，强调英语能力。

我感觉这家公司是比较难进的，Bless所有投Marvell的人。

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Sun, 08 Jul 2007 04:16:09 GMT

刚刚从巴黎春天回来，用不到二十分钟的时间买了一双高跟鞋。

至此，一切准备工作算是告一段落了。

不管从明天开始，事情进展会怎么样，我都想要记录一下。

这个星期去巴黎春天就去了三次。

虽然它也不算太什么的地方，可是就我目前的收入水平，基本是消费不起的。

问题是在很多其他的商场，又一般都不太有买东西的欲望，所以我总是觉得很痛苦。

还好接下来的一段时间，我应该是可以不用去shopping了。

对我来说，shopping是件很烦的事情，特别是你想买的东西买不了的时候。

昨天晚上MSN上碰到小兹鲁，告诉他我的写字楼在什么地方。

经过他的提示兼扫盲之后，我突然意识到原来那里也是可以YY的地段。

在他的带领之下，我们一起憧憬了一下以后的生活。

不过其实一切都是未知数，谁知道到底会怎么样；

我对不可预知的事情总是比较悲观，并觉得恐慌。

这小孩最后居然扯到说觉得我像《彼岸花》里面的xiaozhi，我受宠若惊；

顺带联想了一下我在若干天或者若干个月后会不会真有书中xiaozhi那样的生活。

还有这一阵子大家的关注与帮忙。

我慢慢开始理解为什么每次什么颁奖典礼领奖人总是要列一大串名字。

因为他/她的确得感谢那么多人，漏掉谁都不行，受人之恩就得心存感激。

就比如我现在想想，这次就芝麻大一点破事，烦扰到的人都好多。

米兰.昆德拉会写《生活在别处》。

可是我现在渐渐觉得人不能生活在别处，你得生活在这里。

你需要focus在你身边你周围的人和事情上面，这样生活才会慢慢开始有重心。

Bury the past, forget about the far future, just enjoy current times.

2007 Auto Shanghai

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 11:52:33 GMT

车展无疑是一个可以让人肾上腺激素分泌过旺的地方。

香车美女，哪里都是风景，让人眼花缭乱。

今天是开幕前的最后一天准备工作，明天据说就有记者会了。

每个人都在忙碌，各司其职，偌大的展厅一直都是熙熙攘攘。

中午和daisy吃饭的时候就感叹，一次车展不知道能提供多少工作机会，全职或者兼职。

上午莫名奇妙地就被换了一个supervisor。

不过这个supervisor的英语要比昨天那个好一些，可以进行简单的沟通。

他一直把我撂在一边干活，一个人负责一部车，我觉得有些无聊。

还好中间有从德国过来的帅帅技工检查灯光效果，让我可以大饱眼福并不停YY。

因为真的是很帅，都可以赶上CK的那些平面model了。

下午一群super model过来rehearsal。

美女就是美女，她们一走出来，好多男人都停下手中的活转过头去看。

我的supervisor居然纹丝不动，继续专注干活，我甚至有点怀疑他是不是gay，just kidding~

rehearsal的总监是一老外，期间不停吃美女豆腐，但是看他的样子倒真有可能是个gay。

有那么一个瞬间，在灯光和音乐交织下的展台，感到一丝眩晕，因为一切看上去都似乎那么美好。

不过走出展厅，就有一点从天堂跌落到地狱的感觉。

四处都很杂乱，地上全是烟头，纸屑还有痰，和里面落差好大。

可是这就是真实的上海，一面是飞速发展的经济，一面是持续萎靡的国民素质。

回来觉得好累，睡到现在才起来。

小弟们提议周末去bobo家，看来我是没时间了...

A quiet weekend

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 04:55:12 GMT

Well, it seems that more and more people are writing their blogs in English,

so, although my English is not good enough, I also decided to start English writing from now on.

In my eyes, it is something really interesting and I think I will enjoy doing this.

I just read Rose's blog as well as her bf Patrick's.

Frankly, to read something in English is a little inconvenient and needs much patience,

but I still finished them, and their blogs are really nice.

This morning I was doing nothing but wandering on the internet.

I talked to Withawat and Inheem for a while, and unfortunately felt even more uncertainty about my life.

Usually I went out on weekends and find myself something to do,

but these days I just could not focus on my life since it was already disturbed.

I have to admit that sometimes I was too eager to get something.

The old saying is always true: No pains, no Gains, and there is certainly no shortcut for success.

I know that, I do know that, but still I do not have plenty patience, perhaps I lost so much in the past.

Fortunately I am aware of this and I now often keep telling myself to calm down and work hard.

It is strange that I almost keep a distance with everybody while I am not introversive at all.

Maybe I am just too protective of myself and really afraid of getting hurt.

Most of my spare time, I just spend it alone but not with other people.

Now I have changed a lot, but still do not wanna open my heart to others.

I do not think I am ready for that.

There are truely somtimes I think that I will be a celibate, and I do not think I am joking.

I just feel uncomfortable to get too close to anyone, even my relatives or my best friend.

One big problem for this situation is the pressure of the public, or the pressure of the society.

So whenever it comes to me, I just tell myself I am an ordinary person and I only wanna have my own life.

I am tired of having so much thought in my mind, but it seems impossible to stop thinking.

"God laughs when people begin to think", so, I am now making god laugh:-)

The city of siwen

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 00:32:07 GMT

上次写的几篇全部删掉了，心里觉着可惜，于是重新来过。

很多事情只是不能洒脱地丢弃，造成一如既往的患得患失。

我有想过是不是再搬回去，可是原来那个blog也已经不再单纯。

对我来说，每天完成一场倾诉的过程是一件很有满足感的事情，

不管当时情绪还有心境如何，只是一个一个字地敲打，慢慢叙说。

其实我不在乎被别人知道一些私底下的自己，问题是太多东西牵涉到别人。

所以我决定将space的主题更改，只是这样一来，我的倾诉欲望湮灭了许多。

有些事情在过去之后才渐渐向我显示它的真实面目。

我还记得那天山顶算命时，先生对我说我生命中小人与贵人同在，我一定要小心。

现在看来，一切真的有如著名的XXX预言那般灵验，我的确是被人背后摆了一道。

PS：妈妈说弟弟快长到180了，我很开心，我现在喜欢高高瘦瘦的男生，

我希望他还可以长高一点，最好到182以上，heihei~~